killitwithfire!

hiddenbehindbelief asked: Be proud of yourself. You work so hard for someone else's benefit. That's so unseflish and AMAZING. Be proud of the person you are because I think you're pretty damn great. Just have to pick yourself up and find that motivation. Don't let people lack of appreciation bring you down. At the end of the day...you live to make yourself happy. Do all that it takes to make that happen. Sometimes it's easy to be down and it's a comfortable place. But you gotta be willing to be happy and change.

this made me smile. thank you

every time i get a little bit of happiness someone has to bring me down. i used to just push through it all but im just to exausted and unmotivated to do it anymore. i miss running. i can run anymore and it just makes me so depressed. im not as good as i used to be. back when i was good everything worked out nothing else mattered when i got on the starting line and ripped everyone. but i even lost all that ability. i used to have goals and know what i was doing now i have nothing. i suck at school. i have no athletic ability anymore, my parents hate me, friends hate me, even my grandparents are dissapointed in me. i work 30 hours a week just to give all of it to my mom so we have a roof over our head and i dont get any appreciation for anything i sacrifice. im not motivated to get out of bed anymore and i dont know what im doing with my life. i just want something or someone to make me happy. im constantly trying to make everyone happy but apparently i do the opposite so why dont i just give up. im just so confused about everything idk what to do anymore. i just feel so empty

hrvaticaa asked: the lady for the nursing program won't be free until june 18 when i'm gone for europe. and she told me to talk to her if any spots open. if i dont get in because of my chances being missed...i will kill a bitchl.

can u just keep in touch through e-mail or phone?